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a dense red fog surrounds my mind
pervading every thought that threatens to emerge.
my heart sits tied in knots—
twisting and pulling—
desperate for a day when the pain will subside,
leaving it alone long enough to heal
the seeping holes that remain.
every word that drips from my open mouth
wreaks havoc on the ones i love
simply because my mind is otherwise employed.

i'm confused,
so lost that even love hurts.

your eyes hit like meteors,
burning through my weak flesh,
making me a puddle on the floor.

i can't breathe.
the smell of you
wraps it's musky hands around my neck,
squeezing with a tender strength,
laughing as i fall lifeless to the floor.

if i could think for just a minute,
maybe i could gather the fragments of my heart
and lift the veil that holds my senses captive.
the lingering realization
that i can't have you
hovers before me—
a ghost that dissipates as i reach out,
grasping at mist.